Previously I even posted the above picture in a post as truth. But in November I learned it is only partial truth. My dear husband of almost 25 years, my man, Jerry, had a Whipple (pancreatic cancer surgery) followed a week later by Diabetic KetoAcidosis brought on by his med by mouth for diabetes. He was hospitalized a total of 17 days in 2 visits at OSU. A doctor told him he was so "lucky" to be alive, he should play the lottery. Jerry responded "I'm a Methodist" and left it at that. We were told by the surgeon that 50% of those who have a Whipple die from complications of this particular surgery.

Thousands of people around the world have been going through the stress of not knowing if their loved one will die from Covid or the awful aftermath that comes from the actual death. Faces on the news show anguish and anger. I want to share three things that have helped me during this very difficult time.

1. Prayers: Prayers from many churches / friends / classmates / Marcia's prayer warriors / our Pastor Del who communicated this: Life is hard. Persevere.

2. Family: My sister, April. She is retired from the medical field and has a grasp of basic medical knowledge and an incredible understanding of conditions. Her specialty was as a Nurse Anesthetist. She also gives me pep talks.

My step mother Joy who takes great care of my 98 year old father who has dementia. She checks on us constantly.

3. One particular Old Testament story and one scripture from that story as follows:

David and his men were in enemy territory instead of Judah where he belonged. He was being deceitful while pretending to support the enemy but then was sent away . . back to Ziglag, a town given to David by the Philistine King. When they approached Ziglag they found the city had been burned. Wives and children had been kidnapped and all wealth stolen. All the men wept and each one was bitter in spirit because of the loss of his sons and daughters. Then the grief of David's men turned to rage. 1 Samuel 30:6 states David was greatly distressed because the men were talking of stoning him.


If David could do it, why can't we do it? But what does that mean?

Looking back on David's life, it was his habit to wait on the Lord. He sang to the Lord and wrote many Psalms. But at this time, he had not been talking to God. Instead he was talking to himself and thought . . "One of these days I will be destroyed by the hand of Saul. The best thing I can do is to escape to the land of the Philistines." 1 Samuel 27:1

His faith was failing and fear was growing. Fear and depression drain away spiritual strength. If we don't trust God we will soon trust something or someone else.


Corrie TenBoom had a saying:

Look around and be distressed

Look within and be depressed

Look up and be at rest.

David encouraged himself in the Lord by looking back and remembering all the times God had protected him and helped him.

"The Lord that delivered me out of the paw of the lion, and out of the paw of the bear, He will deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine." The Giant Goliath. 1 Samuel 17:37

David would remember the Lord does love me . . though I have not had fellowship with Him for a time, He has not forgotten to be gracious and compassionate.

David would remember the pastures and sheep where he was so happy as a boy.

David's own Psalms would now comfort him.

He would say I have known the Lord and I know He does not change and He will help me.

Did not the Lord choose me to be King of Israel? Didn't Samuel bypass all my brothers and pour oil on my head and say I am the one?

And I say to you today I did the same. I remembered how God delivered me from the hand of the violent man. I remembered how I heard my sister's voice sitting in Chemistry class and thinking there is no way I can ever get through this class . . it is over my head.

I remember the call to preach and God opening doors to make that happen.

I remember God telling me to start a blog and looking back I think the first one was to heal myself but I didn't know it.

Do you have a diary or journal? Can you take it out and read it and see how many times God has helped you / saved you / been with you? If not, just think back and remember. How many times has God blessed you? Has He changed? No! Encourage yourself in the Lord your God. If you are thinking, but I have sinned . . I have gone the wrong way. But HE HAS NOT!

I am not asking you to have confidence in yourself. No. Confidence is to be in God.

This has been a year of lows. Many lows. No matter how low you are, you can encourage yourself in God. The next thing David did was ask God . . . should I chase down the men who stole our wives and children? God told him yes. David caught up with them and obtained everything, every person alive. David recovered all.

Trust in the Lord your God. Believe in His Son, Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit will help you when you pray and ask God what to do now . . what to do next, etc. You can have peace the rest of this year and face 2021 without shaking and crying. The Lord be with you.

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